A Beautiful Mistake

It started in 2010, the piano lessons and the budding talent. Youtube was an essential tool helping me discover the world of music and art. A world precieved from many different perspecyives with uncountable results when searching for "what is music?". The first piece I officially learned, not perfected, was Fur Elise, the original version not the modified version. But while taking lessons, i got side tracked and began taking on my own route. Taking this route helped me see how impatient of a person I am and how this ended up actually helping me. I began looking for Youtube tutorials for different songs and in the end chose "My Heart Will Go On" by Celine Dion. i learned the first part but then I ended up loosing my patience again, and while I was playing it, i guess I made an unintentional mistake hitting a wrong key. When I heard it though, I was like "hey, I actually really like the way that sounds." and I ended up taking it to a whole new level. When I played it, every time I added a little piece and as the year progressed, the piece began blossoming and blooming, expanding and improving. Every time I experimented with the keys and tried hitting different notes and making mistakes that I liked the sound of, I recorded it, hoping that one day I would go back and rediscover it and add it into the piece. Hey I'm not going to lie but most of those recorded bits and pieces I never heard of again, I guess they got lost in the sea of recordings and ideas I had flowing out of my head while I played. I like to think of this piece as just a huge mistake, a misunderstanding and misconception of music. I feel like I've taken the route of composing music backwards. I compose music without understanding chords and how they work, without fluently sight reading piano sheet music, and without studying the history or structure or the different types and movements of music. When I first began composing the piece, I was just composing it for me, I was just sitting at the piano making music, nothing more to it. Each day I would add a part that had a completely different feeling and emotion than the last. I guess it really depended on my mood. I was even told that it did sound like a whole bunch of little compositions were put together without very fluent transitions, and the funny thing is, is that was really the case. But even though this piece is not based on understanding and research and knowledge and structure, I think that it was really a good way to reflect my emotions, and I think it really allowed me to understand the piano in my own way. Then I saw the opportunity. The opportunity to take my independent project one step further. I could use it for my personal project. I thought that because composing music was more than just sitting down at a piano and making music, I should fill the gap of my understanding of classical music.